07 - Partners in Crime

It's been a while since I last posted. Since wala naman akong masyadong personal insight this past weeks, my blog became idle for awhile. Yesterday, I realized some things about my thesis partner. The thought just crossed my mind.

Let me describe in brief what my thesis partner is. First of all, she's my friend. She was my ever first friend when we were in first year (college). Ever since then, we became close. Apparently, she's a consistent dean's lister in our major. She's kind, very helpful, and you can share your problems with her; personal or not. She's nice.

Even though I know things about her, there are other things that I don't quite figure out when it comes to her attitude. There are times that I get irritated by the way she speaks. Sometimes, I don't like the tone of her voice whenever she answers questions. I mean, if you're angry, just keep your voice low. I don't know if I'm the only one that notices it but it makes me irritated and want not to speak with her.

There was a time when she told us that one of our blockmate told her that she gets intimidated whenever she's (blockmate) with her (friend) because we all know that she's a DL and her presence is 'kinda' intimidating. I was surprised when she told us that and I told her that she's not intimidating. After a few months, I realized why my blockmate told her that.

Being her thesis partner, I realized things that I didn't expect that I would say. I admit, I get intimidated by her already. Why did I say that? When we were practicing the night before our proposal defense, she bombarded me with questions for our thesis. I know it's a practice but because I'm not that good in answering on the spot, I took time before answering the question. She was all quiet on the line. Whenever I say, "ano na ba yung sagot?" she would just answer, "ay ewan ko sayo". I just wanted to quit and say, "let's just study".

When we started becoming partners, I noticed some sides of her when it comes to work. I know that she's a perfectionist and she wants to put everything in order. She doesn't want a mistake to happen. Being her partner, I get stressed because of that. I was just keeping it to myself. Nobody knows how I feel. I know it's wrong to hide your feelings but I just don't want me and my partner to have some misunderstandings and conflicts. I just want us to be okay. I decided to keep things to myself and just go on in whatever is happening just to avoid conflicts.

I just hope she would realize those things. *sigh*